I love you Grandma
Posted by Tim Gruber | Filed under me
As a child one of my wishes was that all my friends and family would die at the same time so I wouldn’t have to deal with the pain of death. Now a little older I realize that wasn’t a very reasonable wish.
For the past month or so I’ve been back home in Minnesota helping my family take care of my Grandma who was recently diagnosed with cancer and given six weeks to live.
Last week I had to face that fear of death when my Grandma left us for a better place.
It was the hardest, but also the most rewarding experience of my life and brought me closer to her and my family. For that I can’t thank my Grandma enough. Actually I can’t thank her enough for everyone she’s done in her life for me. My Grandma would always tell us in the last weeks she was hassle. We’d always remind her that she wasn’t. My Grandma, no matter her condition, took care of us more than we took care of her. She was by far the strongest woman I knew in all facets of life. This was a woman who pitched so many hay bales in her life that her first wedding ring split in half from all the friction of the baling twine rubbing against her ring.
In the weeks that I was with my Grandma I realized there’s a lot more to experiencing life than being behind a camera. With no camera to mask my feelings the tears flowed freely, my heart weeped openly and my appreciation for just living grew immensly. No worrying about color, light, or composition. Only moments mattered. Precious and priceless time spent with my Grandma.
Every minute did really matter and needed to be cherished as such.
For far too long I’ve taken for granted the simple act of loving and living. Cherish those you love. They’re what matter in life.
Here’s a little something I read or tried to read at my Grandma’s funeral:
Grandma I love you
Thank you for all you shared
Thank you for all your care
Grandma I’ll miss you
Although my heart fills with tears
Your strength reminds me that there’s nothing to fear
Grandma I love you
Grandma I’d tell you it’s not fair
You told me it’s all in God’s prayers
Grandma I’ll miss you
Grandma I’ll never forget laying at your side
You lived life with God as your guide
Grandma I’ll miss you
Grandma your quilt reminds me of your tender touch
And it’ll keep me forever wrapped in your love
Grandma I love you.
Grandma I’ll never forget our last moments together
Me calling upon the power of prayer and you telling me not to fear
Grandma I’ll miss you
Grandma thanks for the note you left I cried as I read the words you wrote
I’ll miss you too and can’t wait to see you in heaven
Grandma I miss you and I love you
Grandma’s gentle touch will forever be my guide.
Photo by: Jenn
